Tori on January 25, 2010 at 8:34 pm said:
I know the feeling! I have always considered myself to be a tough lady, but the chemo made me realize that I am really a pantywaist! Chemo was tough, but I have often thought how unfair it is that not only have I (and others!) endured the ravages of chemo, but we also now have to face the realization every day that our hair loss is permanent. To make matters worse, the fear of recurrence is as real as the hair loss. And, sadly there is no cure for fear either.
Tori on January 27, 2010 at 1:36 pm said:
I recently got a nice compliment from a friend. It’s harder for me to accept compliments these days. I know you understand. I made my friend smile when I said I ‘dismantled’ myself at the end of the day. But, like I said, I know you understand. Remove the wig, boobs, wash off the drawn-on eyebrows and then sadly see the ‘real’ you, the new real you, the new real android you. The hardest part is knowing that this new reality is the not temporary. Permanent is a difficult reality. I’m not bitter, just kinda sad – oh, and mad as hell! 🙂